Some of you may follow me on Twitter @goodgirlgongeek. Or perhaps you know me as a contributing writer for GeeksAreSexy.net or ForcesOfGeek.com or even from the now-defunct CNN.com/GeekOut. Or maybe you even know me from goodgirlgonegeek.com.
But most of you probably don't know me at all.
And that's wonderful.
I'm just happy you're here.
As for me, I'm just happy to be anywhere.
And for now, that's the metro Atlanta area, where I've lived for the past 25 of my 28 years.
But soon -- very soon -- I will be moving 1,800 miles away from everyone and everything I've ever loved and known.
I wish I could say it was for the delusional dreams of a wanna-be starlet; that I was finally - FINALLY - pursuing my dreams of stage and screen stardom or of jazz chanteuseness...but it's not. It's for something much, much worse:
LOVE.
I've been in a long-distance relationship with My Knight for nearly a year and a half (already?!). We've been a couple since...well, nearly a year and a half ago. We had shared a circle of friends for 5 years prior, but we only began dating for about two weeks in December 2011 before he had to return to law school in Phoenix, Arizona.
I fell for a guy who lived in Texas once. Needless to say, it didn't work out. But still, took the plunge My Knight and I did, despite our pasts and despite - or in spite of? - a whirlwind two weeks that would have made even Flaubert blush. For all intents and purposes, we should have quit while we were ahead.
But we made it.
HE'S GRADUATING.
He has the promise of a very prestigious law career, and to achieve his long-term career goals, he might have to remain in Arizona for more than just the next one or two years. So, I'm moving. For him. For us.
For love.
We went round and round for awhile -- one of the things he was most afraid of was my having to quit my promising career in TV news. Quite fortuitously, however, the network that employs me was forced to lay off quite a few of us, which means I will get a decent severance and then can collect unemployment, to boot.
KISMET.
More importantly, I still dream of a life on the stage, as not pursuing musical theatre more has become a regret of mine lately. Maybe this will finally be my chance, my opportunity.
To say that I'm not excited would be a lie. To say that I wasn't terrified, would be. But I'm not alone in how I feel. My Knight always tells me that he cannot wait to embark on this new journey together. However, he has done something akin to this before and he, too, is scared: When he got accepted to law school back in 2010, he made the cross-country trek with his then-fiancee. They imploded as a couple and she ultimately resented him. He doesn't want to lose me in the same way.
But I'm not her.
I'm me.
And I WANT to do this. I WANT to embark on this journey with the man I love more than anything in the world.
I hope you will come along with me.
~ L
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